Transition: Psychological
So about
me, I began Transition in December of 2005. I had been going to therapy
when I "accidentally" stumbled on this aspect of myself. I remember her
asking "are you comfortable with your body?" and I said "sure, well
except for this part" and waved my hands in the general region of my
"junk". It was an awakening moment. The Psychological
process for me would've began with puberty. It was during that God
awful time that I kept waiting for the next "thing" that would make me a
man. The ability to orgasm, underarm hair, thickening leg hair, facial
hair, chest hair, and of course the deepening of the voice. I was
diagnosed with depression when I was 15 (because there was a certain
earth science teacher who wouldn't give up on me!), but I remember it
happening right along with puberty.
So I ended up losing my job, party cause I fail at sales, depression and trying to cope with gender identity thing. Though mostly it was due to my lack of self worth. I remember watching "Soldiers Girl" and during a wonderfully romantic scene thinking "I want that" yet I was certain I would never have it. Regardless, I'm grateful for how it all turned out as i got to spend extra time with my father, as I had to move in with him and his wife! It was then that I started my hormones (which I lump under medical).
I began therapy again a few years ago, to help cope with my fathers passing, and continued hormones under a medical professional. The next "big step" is what the SOC calls "the real life test". I'm not really certain how to document that, but I kind of slipped into living full time. A couple of girls at work found out I was wearing sports bras and threw a fit! One of those dear women brought me a bra and I've been wearing them ever since!